I haven't blogged in quite some time. I think the handful who used to read the jibberish I've written have probably given up all hope of me ever writing again. Ha!

But today I felt compelled to write. And it's not about camp callahan or my move to texas or my family, discfunctional though they are. Nope...today...this week...my heart has been heavy for a dear friend. He ended a ministry almost 2 weeks ago. A ministry that he poured all his heart, blood, sweat, tears and money into. I know he & the others prayed and prayed as to what God wanted from them, where He was leading them...and they just had a peace...it was time to end.

It's a devastating loss. But, I know that in time, they will heal...God will lead them through this time...He will show them what He wants for them...how He wants them to grow...and eventually, what He has for them.

I'm sad myself, even though I'm 12 hours away, I've been praying for the ministry - but I never really thought God would lead them to end it. I was so looking forward to visiting when I went home. But, as soon as I heard - I felt a great peace, inspite of the loss. I trust these leaders...I know their hearts are seeking after His will. And, while I mourn with over this loss, I'm truly encouraged by their obedience.

As if that were not enough to make you weep...my dear, sweet, friend, Rob lost his best friend this week. Chey was not just any dog...the two of them had an amazing bond. He was definitely one of the most precious dogs I'd ever met. When I heard that he had passed away, my heart broke. I can't imagine how Rob felt - except to remember how lost I felt when my dog, shadrach - who had been with me my whole life - died at 17. Something inside of me died that day. There is no perfect love other than that between an owner & their dog.

I have no idea what is ahead for my friend, but I know that God is walking with him through this time of pain. I hate to see my friends struggle or go through any pain - but mostly the emotional pain. It can't be seen & there is nothing a doctor or anyone else can do to fix it. I know in my life those are the times when I have grown the most. Joy eventually does come...through the mourning...

I just pray it comes swiftly for all my friends who are mourning now...whether it be the loss of a loved one, a job, a ministry, or anything/anyone of value. God knows your hurt & your heart. He has not left you.